Thursday, November 17, 2016

Update

So I finished my first read-through late-late last night.

While I still love this story, I'm no longer in the honeymoon phase. Dang. I really thought that would last longer. My perfect story is showing some cracks. My perfect story is requiring me to stand by it even though, since it's not perfect, I'm suddenly filled with doubt. It's pushing my buttons. You know which ones... those Uncomfortable Buttons.

Today I made it to about the half-way mark to incorporate those revisions, reject them, and find more.  Finally I had to stop. There's only so much badgering a writer can take, even when it's coming from the writer.

For me, while there is some structure, writing is an inherently messy process. I put the words down and then need to figure out how to fix them. Make them come close to what I meant. It doesn't matter how well I've planned them in advance, in some cases they're wrong.

Like a visual artist who does her best to transfer her vision to canvass, I try to transfer mine to the page. There are bound to be disconnects. The editing and revision process is designed to try and find as many new "connections" as possible.

I keep telling myself that it's okay. I've been here before. That between now and x-number of revisions later, the story will pull itself out of my ineptitude. That finally, when readers get to decide for themselves, they'll find something worthy.


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Friday, November 11, 2016

ONE DOWN

Wow, it's been a while.

Tonight I wrote the final words for the first draft of my new book.

It created a crazy confluence of emotions: relief, victory, excitement, fear, responsibility (really?), you name it, I'm feeling it.

Suddenly I'm committed. Suddenly I have this entity to mold and massage and make into something readers will enjoy.  Maybe that's where the responsibility piece comes in.

Thank goodness for beta readers and editors. It's not all on me.


But...


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Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Ramping Up to The End

I'm feeling like all the elements of my story on trafficking are coming together. I can taste the end. It's not here, but the nearness of it is making me edgy.

Even though it's just the first draft and there will be many revisions to come, I'm anxious. Fretful. For a whole lot of reasons.

Paramount, is the story good enough? Does it hold together? Do I do the subject matter justice? Do I push it forward? Are people who read this book going to look around their lives and see things in a different light?

The end of every book I've written has almost paralized me, created that feeling of edginess. For a lot of reasons. First, I fall in love with the characters. Even beyond my continuing characters, there are those who I'm not likely to see again.

This book especially.

I will miss Jayla. She's brilliant and compassionate and inspiring. She's wise beyond her fifteen years. Even with the harsh cruelty she experiences, I know she'll come out a victor. And retain her core. She's the young girl who, in reality, has gone missing from Aurora in the last few weeks. She breaks my heart.

I will miss Alexis. She's the brash, 17-year old rich girl from the suburbs. Probably more than any of my girls in this book, she's learned the most. Money isn't the answer, and her attitude of entitlement isn't going to get her out of the mess she's in. She's gonna struggle and have years of therapy. None of it her fault.

And finally there's Olivia. She's twelve. Wants to be a veterinarian. Livvy is the kid who lives next door to you. I'm not sure yet how she's going to come out, but I do know she has a family who loves her.


It's all better with friends.

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

Wednesday Wisdom for Writers and Those Who Love Them

"If most writers were honest with themselves, this is the difference they want to make: before they were not noticed; now they are." —Tom Wolfe



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Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Wednesday Wisdom for Writers and Those Who Love Them


"Metaphors have a way of holding the most truth in the least space." —Orson Scott Card


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Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Wednesday Wisdom for Writers and Those Who Love Them

"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase." —Martin Luther King


It's also stepping off the roof of a high-rise and trusting you'll figure out your wings on the way down.



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Wednesday, July 6, 2016

Wednesday Wisdom for Writers and Those Who Love Them

"When you're making a film, you have an obligation to fill the frame with life."—Joss Whedon


It's the same with making a book. You have an obligation to fill each page with life.



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